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Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I feel like I'm not mentally prepared to be in school. I absolutely cannot manage my time. At all. Thus I feel like I shouldn't be in school until I feel like I'm ready. The fact that two of my classmates has already dropped out is not helping. But the society will not allow it. It's been drilled in to our heads that as children/adolescents/teens all we need to do is study study study. Before you know it, we have wasted our glory days/half our lives studying or in school. And most of us end up working jobs we have no interest/hate. So why the rush to finish school? I kind of wish I could stay a teenager forever. Okay, I WANT to stay a teenager forever. Back to my point, I think the education system should extend the schooling period(I know, cray cray right?) and ease the load on students. It's our glory days and it's suppose to be the best years of our lives but all we are going to be doing is cramming for exams? Also, we are most likely to make our life-long friends during this period, and our pastime will be what, studying? Not having fun, like kids/teenagers like us are SUPPOSED to be having? Like partying, clubbing, running around acting crazy/retarded, whatever floats your boat, generally having the time of our lives. Yes, I know and understand we need study and get good grades to get a good job. Which is far from our dream job. And stressful. And has long hours. So, when adults tell us 'pay now, play later', when exactly is 'later'? When we retire and need a hip implant/heart transplant? When we need a wheelchair/walking stick to get around? How the fuck do you expect us to 'play' then huh? You know, without breaking every single motherfucking bone in our body. I really feel like peter pan right now. I would never want to grow up. I hate growing up. I hate a lot of grown ups. But the thing is, people only seem to listen to grown ups. Why? It's not the age that makes people wise, it's the experience, knowledge, teaching and maturity that makes a person wise. A person can live for a hundred year and still be innocent and gullible if the person is sheltered from the world. So, adults know that it won't kill you to maybe try and listen to a kid or teenagers once in a while. Or we are going to grow up learning that kids can't have opinions and the cycle will continue. As usual, I am ending on a topic that I had no intention of getting into. Short attention span FTW. Thursday, January 19, 2012 I found out that one of my friend is going to the UK to study. WHY CAN'T I BE THE ONE GOING OVERSEAS?!?!!??! I want to go to Europe to study/stay there for the rest of my life SO BAD! I'm so jealous. I feel happy for her, but I'm still jealous. Maybe one day, maybe. It's seems like everyone is going overseas to study nowadays. I know a few(quite a lot)of my friends are planning to enroll on overseas universities. TAKE ME WITH OUT! I'LL MISS ALL OF YOU GUYS!!!! 
I was sulking over how I don't get to go overseas when it hit me: I'm going to be the only one that's going to die in Singapore. OH GOD. Someone save me. Please? I have chocolates. My Tumblr family in Europe, please let me stay at your house! Friday, January 13, 2012 My family can quarrel over the smallest things. For instance, a few days ago, my mum was screaming at my brother because he didn't want to eat dinner at the same time as her. It was a full blown fight, not those small(but long) nagging sessions. I was pretty sure they would have rip each other's throat out if it wasn't illegal. I wouldn't mind(Actually I still would) them shouting when I'm sleeping( I am trained over 17 years of this bullshit to ignore everything anyone in my family says) if it was over something serious/important. But over dinnertime? 
Not to mention she was the one preaching to everyone the importance of sleep and she goes and wake me up over some stupid fucking reason. She has to realize not everything she says is right. 50 years( I'm guessing that's her age.) of living and you still think you are always right? Seriously. It's like she has the mentality of a 5 year old. I know she may be right sometimes, but too much bullshit has come out of her mouth for the past 17 years. I don't even bother filtering out the right things from the bullshit, I just ignore everything she says. (Warning: starting of a rant on my mum.) Dear mum, You thinks you have the rights to control everything I do/say/think/act. I cannot and will not take it anymore. You have your own opinion, fine. Don't expect me to have the same, because I won't. I will not, I repeat, will not do/say/act as you like just to please you. I will compromise, but I won't give in. She talks to me like I do everything wrong, like I was never wanted (which is true, but still). She just wants to mold me in to her idea of a perfect child, perfect daughter, but guess what? I don't give a shit if you think I'm not your idea of a perfect daughter. If you don't like it, you don't need to do a thing, because there is nothing you can do. I will not change just because I don't fit into your idea of perfect. I may not be as smart as you want me to be, but did you ever think that maybe it's because I never wanted to take the subjects I'm taking now? I didn't want me to go to the course I wanted so don't expect me to study what I don't like, what I'm not good at. Also, I didn't think me results were bad, a 3.14 GPA is acceptable. When I told you that, the first thing you said was: "Is that good enough?" For your standards? No. Because you expect me to get all As. When I gets reasonably good results, you say it's not my best. What if it is? I'm not fucking Einstein. What are you going to do when you find out I'm not lazy but instead not as smart as you want me to be? You never trust me to make any decision. Not trying to be corny, but it's my life, okay? I can make mistakes if I want to, because I can learn from it(again,not trying to be corny.) Also, I'm going to be 18 soon, I can think for myself. I need my freedom, I don't need a curfew. I'm not going to join a gang or do anything stupid. I'm not going to abuse my freedom. You grew up in a different era, I get that you think differently, but I think I'm old enough to differentiate right from wrong. In this era, staying out late is not as bad as you think it is. I'm not saying it's because everyone is doing it, I'm saying it because I see nothing wrong with it. Teenagers need less sleep than you think. You talk to me like I have no feeling. You say I'm dumb, fat and useless. I'm not hurt, really, because I know it's not true. Except for the fat part, but I don't give a shit. Food makes me happier than you ever will. So if it makes me happy, what's wrong with being fat? I may not be academically inclined, but I am not dumb. In some sense yes, but I'm not as brainless as you think I am. Also I'm Tumblr awesome(not Tumblr famous, it's never gonna happen since I'm a random blog*creys*). Not relevant but I thought I'll just throw it out there. Also to lighten the mood since it's getting emotional/depressing. Also, it proves that I'm not useless, Tumblr is a responsibility. (end of rant) I need to get back to being awesome/crazy/retarded/fun. 
Just looking at a picture of Lexxi (my future husband) makes me feel so much better/happier. Maybe my next post will be a emotional rant on how much I love all the bands I love. Hmm....Sounds likely. Labels: Family |
SiMin. 23 years old From Singapore. Studying at TUM Loves animals, tv shows, book, music, food and fashion. I'm insane and I love it. Stupid stuff makes me giggle. Steel Panther is forever my favourite. Hiddlestoned. |Twitter| |Facebook| |YouTube| |Instagram| |Victoria Frances (go see her art!)|
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