I'm working on it. I swear I am. On most days I feel like I'm getting better, feeling happier, but random crying sessions in the office toilet seem to indicate that I'm not. Why am I taking so long? It seems like it shouldn't. I want to say that I regret it, and that I would do things differently if I had the chance, but I cannot deny that I was so happy then. Alone time is bad, I start thinking and that never ends well. I'm so disgusted by myself, I can't let go and I have no self-respect. I'm just so glad I have my friends. I don't say it enough, but I love you guys. Time for an appreciation post, I feel.

Hui Ching,

I hope you know you are amazing. You are so hardworking when you want to be, intelligent, witty, and a damn good baker. Also you have a dark side, which I like. You try your best to make all of us feel better about ourselves and I am eternally grateful. I know I can count on you to stand behind me and support and be there for me for anything. And I hope you know I will be there for you too, always. Like Snape but less creepy and grease.

Kenji,

You are hilarious. Although I always give you shit for your lame ass jokes, you never fail to make me laugh. You are truly a good person, I can barely make you hate anyone! And if anyone doesn't see how perfectly hilarious, kind, caring and loyal you are, sashay away like the fine piece of ass you are. You bring light to my life, shine on, my fabulous bitchy partner. 

Jia Min,

You are a surprise to me. I honestly didn't think we would be friends for this long. I know you usually don't keep in contact with your friends after you have no need to cross paths with them anymore. I am very honoured to be one of the selected few you keep around, for you to actually want me to be part of your life. 8 years and counting, I adore you to death. From your bimbo moments, to your reassuring and encouraging words; Don't ever change for anyone. You are intelligent, talented and a force to be reckoned with.

Pueh Suan,

You are loyal, smart, multi-talented and very hardworking. You put so much pressure on yourself to perform well in everything you do, know that it's ok to make mistakes, it's ok to be not good at something. You are fine just the way you are, there is no need to be perfect. You are such a good friend, student, and person. You will get to places, stay awesome

I am very grateful and happy that I'm surrounded by people that I love and love me back. You guys make this situation bearable. I love you and I hope you all know that.