Monday, February 15, 2016

I am unbelievably terrified of the future. I am (hopefully) going to graduate by next year, and I have no bloody idea what I'm gonna do after that. I am soon supposed to be a contributing member of society and yet I have no idea what I have to offer. I don't feel ready.

I literally have no idea how most things in life work. How do I find or apply for a (proper)job that doesn't go through some recruiting agency? How do I do taxes? How do I buy a house? How do I make sure I don't end up in debt? How do I make sure I don't let my work consume me? How do I make sure I won't lose interest in my job? How do I actually study? How do I socialise? How do I balance school and life? How do I feel happy? How can I make sure I stay motivated to do ANYTHING.

I'm barely coping with university right now, though some might argue that I am not even doing that, how am I supposed to enter the workforce? What am I going to do? I honestly cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel and I am getting more and more worried. I don't want to end up being a useless member of society. Why doesn't school have lessons for this kind of things? I need help.