Friday, May 30, 2014

It's all over now. Three years of my life, I spent in NYP. Laughed hard, played harder and studied at the absolute last minute, the school suited me well.
Did I enjoy it? Yes, for sure.
Do I regret anything? So many.

Made good friends along the way, maybe they might turn out to be life long friends, maybe not. If not, I wish you all the best in everything and I really enjoyed my time in school with you. Life in school would not have been the same without any of you. You have affected my life and I thank you for that.

The ones I don't like, I don't care if it makes me childish, go fuck yourself. You know who you are.

As for the things I regret, I really should have studied harder. Now I'm in this situation where my future is uncertain and I can only blame myself. Why, why did I not just worked a little harder? I mean, I know it's important, but I didn't REALIZE. Sigh, can I start my life over? I'm not how I want to be, I'm not where I want to be, it's all very demoralizing.

I regret one other thing. But I can't do anything about it now. I'm so sorry.

I just want to not worry so much about what I need to do. I just want to relax and lock myself in my room and not face the reality of what's happened. I'm panicking and I just want to run away from my responsibilities.

I'm such a coward, it disgusts me.